Truth, Thoughts, and Dreams

MaMo's Truths: Life is humorous . . . and stubborn.

Random Thought: At heart, I feel like an Alice. But I fear I'm becoming more and more like Mr. Rabbit... And that's no way to live.

So Operation Speak-a-lot is in full swing. I'll be speaking at graduation! Hot dog. AND it gets better. I'll actually have some coaching by my talented and cherry choir teacher. I never thought I'd have a coach in anything. I figured sports weren't forme because of the commitment and physical discipline required that I shy away from . . . huh. Lemme try saying this: "Hey Coach!"

Weird.

But cool!

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This isn't necessarily a task, but a dream of mine: I want to have a huge music bash at my wedding. Or--probably an earlier date--my 24th birthday (Leap Year!). A mix of my favorite songs, and then live performances from various friends. I can already anticipate connecting with current high school buddies later.

Is that weird? I honestly look at some of my peers and I think, "I would love to call you up later in my life and work with you or request your services." I just hope I'll have the resources and the power to connect with these amazing people later in my life.

The hare didn't need to win anyway

Is it really that lame if, as the finish line comes in view, you just want to give up on the race and take a nap under a tree instead?

I mean C'mon, the hare was tired! He'd been running and hopping around the whole time, you can't blame him for taking a nap. His body needed it, gosh dangit. He could have DIED if he hadn't rested. Let's just give the hunk-of-metal trophy to the darn tortoise Let's over look all the hard work and exertion the hare put forth. It's all cancelled out because he took a rest.

Do you see the injustice? Honestly, which one of you is a tortoise anyway? None of us can relate to the tortoise. We are all mostly hares.

I'm gonna rewrite that story.

By the way, this has no relation to the fact that I'm a senior in high school and want to drop out of 90% of my classes. It also has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that graduation approaches and I haven't spent time with friends, and more importantly family. And the fact that I've been low on joy and energy for the past three weeks and wonder if it would be a sin to learn how to conveniently faint on command is also irrelevant and unrelated to anything I've said.

So a New Random Task may be speaking to a large group of people about something other than religion. It all depends on whether I get selected as a graduation speaker or not... but it would be cool if I did, huh! I'll call it Operation Speak-a-lot. I should know by Thursday.

Sigh... yeeeeaaa if I could just skip ahead to graduation, I wouldn't feel like I missed a thing. I'm ready to be done. Sorry this isn't the sunshiny entry I usually post. I guess it's turned kinda dark and sarcastic. My thoughts are just...oh that poor hare! I swear, I will rewrite that story. I'm serious as a heart attack.

NEW RANDOM TASK: for the greatest cause...

Operation Rewrite: to rectify the hare

Dreaming while accomplishing the Mandatory

Sooooo... (cough). Remember when I said I should accomplish two or three tasks before I add another task on THE LIST???

weeeeell...

New Task!

Well I'm not sure if its a task or just a new dream of mine. But anyway, if I do end up being successful and happy in the journalism field, I would love to do a documentary on the Falun Gong (persecution in China--although I hope it won't live that long), depression, and go undercover. I guess I really don't even need to be a professional journalist in order to do these. I realized "make a documentary" is actually #77. However, "go undercover" is not on the list.

So for #107, I add: Go undercover.

I'm sorry it's taking me so long to do another task. I really am exhaustingly busy accomplishing stuff, it's just not the stuff I want to be accomplishing. You know, the Mandatory. The Mandatory is so particular these days, it won't allow time for much else. Yea, it is partly due to my time management (or lack thereof) but only 50% my fault... maybe 45%. But it could be 100%. I have realized this:

MaMo's Truths: The man who masters time, masters the world.

MaMo's Truths: The richest man is not the man who manages money, but manages time.

(If you haven't caught on, I hope you realize "THE LIST" has it's own sound effect; hence the uppercase and color. Imagine a jazzy burst of excitement like in those spy movies every time you see "THE LIST". There's a pause before it too to add effect. Maybe I'll add hyphens on either side. Oh! And read and say it with more intensity. Its really dramatic.)

We'll I'm off-

Mandatory MaMo

Still inching towards fruition

MaMo's Truths: We give the future too much power. All the power lies within the present.

This is one of the points I make in a speech I'm writing for graduation. I haven't been officially selected but I realize now that I would like to become an expert in speaking and using my voice. A modern day Orpheus. So on THE LIST, I add #106: become a public speaker.

You know... I'm beginning to worry that this list will just continue to grow and never reach fruition. I should really stop adding to it... Or at least I need to accomplish two or three before I add another... yeeeeaa.

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Okay so I'm watching "The Buried Life" (my new favorite show) and I thought, "Who is the camera guy filming this stuff?... Or girl?" Same thing with Bear Gylls and "Wild Man". How is the camera following all this stuff?

Just sayin.

People need to stop inspiring me...

MaMo's Truths: Inspiration is a tiring thing,

but at least it keeps you moving forward.

So I was watching Oprah the other day (someday I'll meet that woman) and these four guys were on. Ben, Duncan, Dave, and Jonnie from Canada. Turns out these guys made a LIST just like me. Unlike me, they have fully committed themselves to completing it to the point where they have a TV show recording it!

I--AM--SO--JEALOUS

But after the jealousy came attraction (because they're sexy) and admiration. I want to do exactly what they're doing! I don't care if it's on TV or not, but I love the idea of devoting yourself to a cause and, with a group of friends, traveling to get it done. What REALLY impressed me was how they also take the time to help others with their LISTS. They helped a woman conquer her fear of heights. They raised money and took another to see her

mother's grave site for the first time. They reunited an artist with a son he hadn't seen in 17 years. It's incredible.

And so (ironically) to the bottom of MY LIST, I'm adding: create a LIST with friends and complete it together for a summer, while helping others with theirs.(I believe this would be #106?)

I may end up doing this for multiple summers, but this is just a start. I really, really, really, really think that would be the funnest thing EVER! I finished the program with a pounding heart, racing mind, and inspired spirit--AGAIN.

I don't know what it is, but if I had a penny for every time I was inspired by something, I might me rich!...

well, I guess considering that we're talking pennies here I may only be four dollars richer... barely enough to buy me some gas... Anyway my point is, I'm beginning to loose track of what things I've been inspired to do. I can be quite tiring. I always find myself thinking:

"Oh, I want to do that!" OR "Ooo I could do that!"

"Wow. I need to to that." OR "That's incredible! I should do that!"

So... I tend to dream bigger and bigger and my plans for life expand...but I guess its better than nuttin.

~MaMo~

P.S. if I don't have this on my list already, I'm adding it now (107): Have a special family activity with the Tins.

Update on Operation Bud:

Serious progress. Penny is doing much better and the future looks promisingly sunny :)