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Thought Should Have Won...

MaMo's Truths: Explore all your options

Be careful when having to deal with both excitement and thought. Some cases require excitement to win. Other cases require thought to win. This situation called for the latter:

Task #9 (go to a Paramore concert) will be checked off on May 10th!!! I freaked out when I heard they were coming. In my excitement and rush to get tickets, I did not explore my purchasing options and so I ended up paying 15 dollars more than I needed to. Even worse, I paid for two other people's tickets., and since I cannot bring myself to have them pay for my mistake (literally), I'll be paying $66 of my own money for a concert that should have costed $27.

Tehe.

Lesson well learned.

Another general example of making sure thought is not overpowered by excitement is this:
I love learning, life, and it's experiences. And so I tried to cram all these wonderful experiences in this itty-bitty senior year. Yeeeeeaaaa.... Shoulda thought about that. You see wonderful experiences require energy and attention. If not, it may not turn out so wonderful. They also come with responsibilities. You may think it's only about you, but I promise, in EVERYTHING there is a hidden responsibility somewhere. I now realize I have not given the proper amount of energy or attention to anything. Instead I sprinkled a little here, a little there...I don't like that! I also feel kind of trapped because once you dive into it, your responsibilities leap out and joyfully confront you.

What do you do?

Stick it out, and pocket it as a lesson learned and never to be repeated? ...or do you abandon ship?

I Am Not a Scale

So Operation Bud is still in progress... well I hope it's progress. At least with Penny.

Unfortunately things are on a slight downturn with Patty. I'm spreading myself pretty thin here I think. I personally think I make a pretty good pal, but I'm not perfect. I thought that was obvious, but perfection is expected of me anyway. But you see, I can't hang out or sleepover every time I'm invited, I don't stop and give a run down of my life story whenever I see someone, and I value family and personal time. And it's not that I keep secrets, I just don't open my mouth and tell all when I don't think it's important. And when I suddenly get close to someone, naturally, I'll give them more attention (which does NOT mean I care less about another: I am not a scale. More love given to another does not take away from love already given. Honestly, I think my capacity to love is underestimated by many. This probably makes no sense at all to you.

Sigh... Sorry if that sounded a bit snooty.

Well, anyway: bottom line is it's become evident that Task #73 will be a lifelong pursuit, requiring much work, attention, and upkeep throughout the years. So don't look for a "CHECK" anytime soon. It won't come till... well I guess another 30 years. Don't worry, once I feel Penny's okay, I'll start up on other tasks. I won't wait till this one's completed.

I'm off to accomplish...I guess:)~

MaMo

Operation Bud

MaMo's Truths: Half the definition of love is pain.

Alright, so the official LIST is on hold for a bit.

You see in order to accomplish Task #73, I need to take care of a sudden random task first. Task #73 is: remain friends with Penny, Wendy, Patty, Kitty and Betty (names have been changed) to the extent where my children call them aunts. I want to keep them in my life. I mean, really I'd like to keep all my friends and acquaintances in my life, but I'm pretty close with these five and we've been through too much to break up after high school and never talk to each other. So:

New Random Task--Operation Bud
hm...I like that...I think I'll go back and name the other Random Tasks. Anyway, so Operation Bud is to talk sense into Penny so she doesn't make--continue to make the biggest mistake of her life. I don't know how long it will take, but that's certainly where my attention is for now.

Accomplishing!!!.....nothing

Apparently abstaining from sugar for a period of time and then stuffing yourself with it makes you ill.

At least that's what mom thinks.

Moral of the story is I'm sick with a yucky, stuffy nose that causes headaches, fatigue, loss of interest, impatience, contempt, and temporary depression. How can I accomplish anything in this state!?

BUGGAH!

Gotta Love February

February!!!

Man, am I glad January's dead. I can eat sugar!...well it's not like I didn't have any in January, but...well now I don't feel bad about it. Sort of. My sister makes me feel like a pig about it. I guess I put a few too many sweets in my mouth today and she was like, "I thought the whole point was to eat better. Not stuff yourself when it's over." (read that again in an annoying-snooty voice, that's how it felt). I really don't think I ate too much. I only had a lemon square and a chocolate truffle when I got home, a brownie in some ice cream (just a little bit!), and two little cookies later at night... I actually do feel a little disgusted with myself. I need some water.
Excuse me................................................................................................................

Anyway, besides sugar, February is also my birthday month, Black History Month, and so far, it's been really sunny! I see happiness. The snow is even gathering the sense to leave.

The LIST update:

Task #67 my room
CHECK! 1/23/10: I now cannot function without my room in general order. It doesn't stay spick and span but I do feel the need to organize before I go to bed or do anything in there. I still tend to lose myself. My teacher had me organize some books in a closet today. I set an alarm to stop me when the school news came on. I pressed snooze. I pressed SNOOZE! I had to finish what I was doing.

Random Task (Operation Power: special family member): going good. Playing games, holding hands, hanging out...we're getting there.

I am off to accomplish!
Mamo