Driving Sexy Wishes...on the Sea?

"Your senior wish has been granted! :)"

So I'm in class and a Student Council student comes in and whispers to the teacher. I know it's coming. I turn and see my prom date peeking in the door window. Permission is granted and suddenly, four singing guys burst into the room and surround my desk. They make indian "odlodlodl" sounds (I don't know how else to spell it). And they sing a little ditty!!! Sure the smoothie they delivered took three hours to unfreeze and it wasn't the flavor I asked for, but.... It sure put a smile on my face ;)

new task #108: Go one week or longer without driving a car.

Of course I probably wont officially start this till the summer, but I rode my dad's bike pretty far on saturday. I like it. And you know what, the price of gas has just taken all the joy out of driving. For some reason, I think I would feel less stressed if I walked and rode a bike more often. You know, it sort of gives an "I am my own master" feel. I do need to get a new bike though. Like one of those skinny wheeled ones. I don't know what it is but they seem to get a lot of speed. Here I am, slaving away on my bike, and all these skinny wheeled people pass me by, moving their legs half as much. What's the deal, eh?

Operation Deep Sea Diving update

Mama is doing well! Of course things aren't as relaxed as I'd like since school is ending and I'm becoming more frantic. But we are all much better.

My new favorite role model is miss Jada Pinkett Smith. She is sexy in every sense of the word. And she sure is sassy. I love it. The perfect Smith family was on Oprah a few days ago and with every prophetic, witty word Jada and Will said, I honestly fell in love.

And as I watched her I realized she reminds me of my mother . . . like a lot. Funny

Like the Back of my Hand

MaMo's Truth: You think you know yourself. Then a challenge comes. You think you know yourself. Then you fall in love. You think you know yourself. Then you get what you want. Eventually you'll realize you don't know yourself at all.

Operation Speak-a-lot: My graduation speech is coming along well. My coach and parents are very helpful. My coach says I have a problem with adding little things when I actually deliver it though... Is that a problem? Sometimes in the moment I add some spice, ya know? Buuuuuut I guess it doesn't work. I understand the risk in ad libbing. I do say silly things.

And of course when I actually give it in front of all my peers and their families, I may have no mental stability to intelligently ad lib anyway sooooooo... getting it down word for word may be a smart idea.

I used to think I was a good speaker. Then in an actual competition, when so much confidence had been shared, I placed 9th. Out of 12 people. It was an eye-opening experience. I felt like one of those American Idol auditioners who had been told all their life that they could sing, but then they open their mouth and you wonder if it's all a joke.

I am an American Idol Joke.

I used to think I was a peppy person that went all out and could conquer daunting tasks to the finish, with a smile. But as graduation nears, it gets less and less exciting and more and more dreadfully stressful. Here I am, feeling unprepared for the next day, losing passion, spacing homework assignments, and constantly imagining dropping out or whether I should care if my GPA hits an all time low.

This is bad. Very very bad. Malo.

I used to think a lot about myself. I could make a whole list of things I thought I knew about myself.

But now I don't think that part of my education will ever end.

Diving in the Sea Deeply

Question: What am I harboring?

And what's deeper in the ocean?

New Random Task: Operation Deep Sea Diving (focusing on mom)

A dear friend and neighbor of mine gave a talk that made me think. She talked about how we're all harbors. We harbor regret, grief, anger. All these boats cover the ocean where deeper wonders and truth reside, unexplored and hidden.

Pretty darn insightful huh?

That day, father got the family together and we all resolved to relieve mom of her 'boats' or go 'deep see diving' because she's been feeling pretty low. So part of my energy is going towards making her happy, giving her attention, and trying to understand what she needs. I think that will be a new phrase of mine. "Deeps Sea Diving" in relation to people.

on A different NOTE!!! (tehe...that was a pun)

CHECK! Task #9 (5/10/10)

Go to a Paramore concert: Betty, my sister, and I all went to see Paramore

on monday and it was a blast! The E Center is pretty cool. My kind daddy gave us some green for snacks. I'm so spoiled. Fun and Relient K were the opening bands and they were even good. AH! I just love Hayley Williams. I'm so proud

of her...and extremely jealous at the same time to the point where I want to inhabit her body and live her life...just for a little while.

Is that weird? ... yea I guess it is.

Wishing . . .

random thought: When did we start throwing money into fountains to attain our wishes? Whoever thought that would work!? And how many of us believed them!?!? I guess the concept of faith and hope is dead...Wishes being BOUGHT... hogwash. I find that quite contrary to common values. That's like saying, 'Kid, it doesn't matter how much you wish for it. If you ain't got the money, it ain't happnin.'

I am now entering the most anticipated experience of my senior year of high school career.

SENIOR WISHES!!!

So far I have not been told that there is a limit to how many wishes you can make, tehe! soooooo

I want dis:

Smoothie Quartet Delivery -- a peach pleasure smoothie delivered by a quartet of men from choir while they sing a little ditty.

Sing song with Jazz Band -- just for fun. Possibly "Summertime" (and singing with my talented friend Haley might be cool)

LONG LUNCH

Speak over Intercom -- Calling people down, checking them out, making announcements in various voices

The sad thing is that each wish costs at least $1 in addition to whatever it would cost to complete the wish. The saddest thing is that I'm willing to do that.

So in the future, I won't necessarily be completing much other than graduation preparation, but you will hear of the magical tasks of others completeing dreams. Plan to hear about wishes coming true and all that jazz!