Old Maid Scraping By

Random Thought: I bet at one point in their lives, old maids who hide in their house were once quite social. I'm sure, deep deep in their past, they were the life of the party, the town friend, "everybodyknowser." Maybe all that pressure and excitement tired her out. And then maybe she had to get ready to move - just a block away. And maybe she tried to be a part of both worlds, the old and the new. And perhaps she couldn't see the bridge between the two. Maybe, perhaps, that's when she lost it. Maybe one day she suddenly felt confused about her priorities, capabilities, and responsibilities. Maybe she just felt like she needed to be home for a bit. That was her safe place. And then maybe when it was finally time to move, she didn't want to. Even when the doorbell or the phone rang, she just didn't want to. Don't ask me how I know this.

I just know it's true.

So yea, it's been a while since my last post and I haven't even looked at my list. It's a humorous tragedy that sometimes we get so caught up in the perceived "have tos" in life that we forget to live.

I've become a college student. And so begins the knowledge of "scraping by" and not just with money or food. I'm honestly going by on a whim. Nothing feels secure at the moment. You see, part of the deal is that I became overwhelmed with the choices of housing and financial aid... so I didn't do anything.

Let me spell that out: S...T...U...P...I...D

So now I missed out on the cheapest housing available because I didn't look in the right place even though it was presented to me. But hey, financially, I may survive... What worries me is the "may." Awh, I hate what money does to us. It's gotten me all frightened. On top of all the homework, forgetting projects, and the slip of social life, I truly have learned a few lessons.

College Knowledge

1. know your options

2. Meet people. Everyone. Everywhere.

3. Don't get so caught up on the little things that you forget about the biguns.

4. Your teachers can be cool. And if they aren't, just act like they are.

5. Unless you lock yourself away and ignore all sound, there's no way you'll get things done at home. On campus is really the best place.

6. Who said you can't have bag lunches in college? It may be nerdy but nerds are smart $$$$

7. And unless you really cling, unless you give your life to keep it alive... high school dies. Fast and easy.

But is there anything you get to keep? What would I pay to hold on to...